Dear Self...

Stop eating things like fried chicken and ice cream sandwiches. Your wife is making a delicious meal consisting of patty pan squash and all you want to do is gorge yourself in trans fats. Stop sucking.

Well we'll float on, good news is on the way.

Hi, my name is J and it's been 61 days since my last post….

61 days?
Thats just insane.
How did 61 days go by this quickly?

The last time I posted was the evening S and I received our first BFN. Now here we are, 61 days later, and in the middle of our 3rd TWW -- hoping this time the outcome is more favorable. [duh, captain obvious over here]

Speaking of the TWW, this one has been quite interesting. S was extremely irritable over the weekend. The smallest and stupidest things were setting her off, which is the complete opposite of how she normally is. Just the way I put the dishes away was enough to send her into a murderous rampage. Ok well maybe not murderous, but lets just say I'll never make the mistake of putting the smaller juice glasses on the 3rd shelf again. Of course we're not trying to read too much into this type of stuff. Maybe she's always secretly hated the juice glasses on the 3rd shelf, it's just taken her 8 years to get around to telling me. I think I remember reading somewhere that the introduction of male hormones into a female body can increase hostility? Or I could be making that up.

But yeah, I'm trying to not think about it very much. S asked me today how I manage to not think about it 24/7. I suppose it's easier for me since I'm not over analyzing everything my body does. If I've got weird things going on in my tummy, it's probably just gas. Though with her it could be a million different things. Do other non-biological-moms-to-be have an easier time with the TWW than their partners do? Or am I alone on this one?

So with less than a week left in our wait, S will be heading off to the Cape with her newly pregnant BFF and I'll be staying behind for the maternity photo shoot I have scheduled. Since we'll both be surrounded by other pregnant people, it would be great to test next Monday and see a BFP!

We'll see….

Love Weekends...

And I'm always so sad to see them go...

One of the weekend highlights is that FF said I ovulated exactly when I thought I did. Which means spot on timing. I know there is nothing more we could have done this month, so now I just let go, wait, and see. Today is 4 DPO and I am trying not to over analyze. Although yesterday I was ridiculously irritable and felt sick after dinner.

J brought me out this morning to get a breakfast sandwich from Panera (yum!) and we spent the morning making a chocolate mint ice cream, using the chocolate mint we received from our CSA. It's currently chilling in the fridge and should be ready in plenty of time for 'True Blood'.

Other than that we are trying to clean up and get my stuff together for my trip to the Cape this weekend. I am so looking forward to it! The best part is FF said I can test on Monday. Since I won't be with J we are going to wait until Tuesday am if AF doesn't come before that.

I hope everybody's Sunday is as glorious as ours.

Surprised Again!

But this time it wasn't so bad. True story.

I generally make my IUI appointments for CD 18-22, since history has told me those days usually work. So, my first appointment for this month was tomorrow. The procedure is I call and confirm if I'm ready, or call to cancel if I'm not.

Like the good little TTC'er that I am, I was peeing on a monitor stick every day, seeing low after low after low. Generally I get a few highs and then peak. On Monday I got a low. Normal. On Tuesday I get out of the shower, take the stick out of the monitor and see peak!

Panicked, I run up to the bedroom and ask J what we should do. Seeing as we inseminated too early last month, we were really anxious about our timing. I hurry and leave a voicemail for the clinic to see if they can squeeze me in on Tuesday and Wednesday (you know, since I didn't have any appointments!) and take my very last OPK (digital) and stick it my work bag. Around noon I mosey into the bathroom, POAS, and wait. After 3 minutes, a big smiley face greets me and I start to relax about the timing.

J wasn't able to make the appointment yesterday and it wasn't the most comfortable. Some painful cramping afterward and it didn't help that I had to walk to the train to get home. Luckily she was able to meet me today and it was great!

I'm hoping for a temp spike tomorrow to confirm the big O and then the dreaded TWW. Luckily I'll be spending a few days with my newly pregnant best friend on the Cape, so that should make the time go faster.

Our timing was as perfect as it could be this month and I'm hoping to ride the wave of all the recent BFP. So send that baby dust my way!

Yummy!

What a great weekend! Besides being relaxing, it was full of yumminess. Yesterday we hit up the outdoor farmer's market for the first time this season and picked up lots of treats including strawberries, mint, some tasty grass fed meats and to die for lemon basil pesto. It was a gorgeous day so we sat out on the deck, munched on pesto and bread and enjoyed the sunshine. We then had a last minute invite from friends for dinner, so we headed out and spent the rest of the evening with them.

Today we skipped the gym (oops!) and ran to Whole Foods to pick up the things we needed that we couldn't get at the farmer's market. When got home J. wanted to try making some scones so we could use the scallions we received in our CSA. J. is an amazing cook, but baking isn't her bag. And I should just stay far away from kitchens in general. But we gave it a try and made a scallion and cheese scone. After 20 minutes in the oven we had success! They are so good! Now that we know how easy it is to make scones, we are going to make so many kinds! We followed it up by making some strawberry basil lemonade using the recipe I found here. Everybody should run and make it right now!! This is going to be one of our summer staples from now on.

Now we're relaxing, I'm doing some laundry while J. is watching baseball. Looking forward to another episode of True Blood tonight!

What? Do I only update this when I'm sick? Not sure what is going on today, mini crud I suppose. Since I take the train to work I didn't want to chance getting stuck up there feeling like garbage.

I just found out the other day that my best friend is pregnant, after trying for years. I'm so happy for her and I really hope this month is our month so our babies can be almost exactly the same age!

We are on track to do 2 IUI's this month, hopefully starting at the end of next week. Since I have such a wacky cycle last month I am going to be extra anal this month:)

I need to catch up on blogs (and start commenting!!!) but I love reading all the good news!

Crud

I had a hope that I would get to spend my entire weekend relaxing. Maybe laying on the couch enjoying movies. I should be more careful what I wish for. I spent the entire weekend laying on the couch fighting off a stomach bug that woke me from a sound sleep at 2:00 am on Saturday morning. I proceeded to spend the next 12 hours so sick I could barely tear myself away from the bathroom.

After sleeping through the night last night my stomach has been feeling better but I am still tired and achy. My hope is that J. doesn't pick it up since we have plans on Wednesday to head to Baltimore for a few days. She has a pretty good immune system, so I'm betting she'll be fine.

Onto the world of ttc, I started spotting today which means AF will be in full force tomorrow. I need to order some sperm and set up our appointments tomorrow for try #3. I sure hope it's a charm.

What a ridiculous cycle. It appears that I did ovulate almost a week late, making my cycle abnormally long. Still waiting for AF to appear, probably tomorrow or Saturday? Waiting for that to happen so we can start planning for #3. We plan on doing 2 IUI's this try, hopefully trapping that egg!!!

But we did have a wonderful holiday weekend and are looking forward to a relaxing weekend starting tomorrow!