10 DPO

And the spotting has begun.

I generally have a short LP, so it isn't crazy to spot today and get AF tomorrow. I was hoping the B6 would have helped some with the LP.

Even though I have pretty much given up on this cycle due to the spotting, I can't help but feel like there is the tiniest, tiniest chance it could be implantation spotting due to the insane soreness of my boobs. But I'm not holding out much hope.

I have been trying to avoid everything ttc and baby related during the tww, so I haven't been keeping up on blogs but it sure did make the wait slightly more bearable. I found I didn't obsess over every little thing my body did and was actually able to make it to 7 or 8 DPO before I started fretting. So go me!

August is a busy month, with both of our birthdays and our wedding anniversary all squished into 9 days. We'll be in NYC the first weekend of August, so if this cycle does end up being a bust I'll be sure to enjoy myself with my wife.

I hope you are all safe and healthy and I'm looking forward to moving past this month, making some choices about our ttc future, and catching up on all of your lives!

Regroup

I've been trying to avoid TTC and baby related things lately. I wanted to give myself (and J) a little break. I do appreciate all the comments and advice on the last post. I'll be back to reading and commenting shortly.

But I wanted to pop in and give you all the address to the wife's brand new food blog! She is an amazingly talented cook and photographer! Please visit her at www.foodandale.com and feel free to comment away!

Another BFN

Woke up to AF at 5:40 am on Saturday. It was even more upsetting since I was with the pregnant best friend and went from "maybe being pregnant" to knowing that I wasn't. This month I had my shortest cycle and LP ever, 26 and 9. This has me slightly concerned about my progesterone levels and I think I'll try B6 this month.

After talking it over with the wife, we decided to try 2 IUIs this month with our same donor. This will exhaust what is left of my FSA. If that try doesn't work we will look at new donors and I'll also contact my insurance company regarding infertility coverage. The coverage begins after a year of being unsuccessful, but I don't know if they are going to require 12 IUIs since I am not partnered with a male. It seems that proof of ordered sperm should be good enough to be considered a failed cycle, but we all know insurance companies are in the business of being helpful. I certainly don't want to skip any IUIs if they will be necessary, but financially it would be nice to try to do a few home insems.

Now we prepare for another month of peeing on sticks, turning on monitors, ordering sperm and making appointments.

Vacation

In a little over an hour my best friend will be here and our vacation will officially begin! We will be getting up wicked early to try and beat the traffic. Then we will spend our weekend relaxing! I can't even wait to put my floppy hat and sunglasses on and sit my butt at the beach.

In TWW news, there are moments where my body feels completely foreign and I think I must be pregnant. Then at other moments I'm completely normal. I'm currently 8 DPO and if I don't get AF this weekend I'll be testing on Monday. I'm going to try to keep a positive attitude!

I hope everybody has a beautiful weekend!

Dear Self...

Stop eating things like fried chicken and ice cream sandwiches. Your wife is making a delicious meal consisting of patty pan squash and all you want to do is gorge yourself in trans fats. Stop sucking.

Well we'll float on, good news is on the way.

Hi, my name is J and it's been 61 days since my last post….

61 days?
Thats just insane.
How did 61 days go by this quickly?

The last time I posted was the evening S and I received our first BFN. Now here we are, 61 days later, and in the middle of our 3rd TWW -- hoping this time the outcome is more favorable. [duh, captain obvious over here]

Speaking of the TWW, this one has been quite interesting. S was extremely irritable over the weekend. The smallest and stupidest things were setting her off, which is the complete opposite of how she normally is. Just the way I put the dishes away was enough to send her into a murderous rampage. Ok well maybe not murderous, but lets just say I'll never make the mistake of putting the smaller juice glasses on the 3rd shelf again. Of course we're not trying to read too much into this type of stuff. Maybe she's always secretly hated the juice glasses on the 3rd shelf, it's just taken her 8 years to get around to telling me. I think I remember reading somewhere that the introduction of male hormones into a female body can increase hostility? Or I could be making that up.

But yeah, I'm trying to not think about it very much. S asked me today how I manage to not think about it 24/7. I suppose it's easier for me since I'm not over analyzing everything my body does. If I've got weird things going on in my tummy, it's probably just gas. Though with her it could be a million different things. Do other non-biological-moms-to-be have an easier time with the TWW than their partners do? Or am I alone on this one?

So with less than a week left in our wait, S will be heading off to the Cape with her newly pregnant BFF and I'll be staying behind for the maternity photo shoot I have scheduled. Since we'll both be surrounded by other pregnant people, it would be great to test next Monday and see a BFP!

We'll see….

Love Weekends...

And I'm always so sad to see them go...

One of the weekend highlights is that FF said I ovulated exactly when I thought I did. Which means spot on timing. I know there is nothing more we could have done this month, so now I just let go, wait, and see. Today is 4 DPO and I am trying not to over analyze. Although yesterday I was ridiculously irritable and felt sick after dinner.

J brought me out this morning to get a breakfast sandwich from Panera (yum!) and we spent the morning making a chocolate mint ice cream, using the chocolate mint we received from our CSA. It's currently chilling in the fridge and should be ready in plenty of time for 'True Blood'.

Other than that we are trying to clean up and get my stuff together for my trip to the Cape this weekend. I am so looking forward to it! The best part is FF said I can test on Monday. Since I won't be with J we are going to wait until Tuesday am if AF doesn't come before that.

I hope everybody's Sunday is as glorious as ours.