CD1

Well, J's post summed it up. A night of spotting, followed by some more spotting, followed by AF. Bummer.

I'm pretty sure our timing was spot on, but we only did one insemination this month. Also I may have some slight concerns regarding my luteal phase, but I'm not sure.

We allowed ourselves some time to wallow and feel sorry for ourselves. After all, I got ridiculous skin breakouts yesterday! I never break out! What a cruel joke to give me 7 zits but no baby. Jerks.

Today is all about moving forward. April was such an incredibly stressful month, not all of it ttc related. I'm looking forward to unwinding, going on our vacation, and starting new. I'll be drinking my fertilitea, exercising, starting yoga and possibly trying some acupuncture.

On the plus side, forcing myself to eat right and not drinking alcohol has done amazing things for my energy levels and all around well being.

And now off to not think about work or babies for a blissful two days!

Access Denied.

C:\>BABY.EXE
File not found
Abort, Retry, Fail? R
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It's official, S got her period tonight. Even when she had a touch of spotting last night we tried to remain positive since there was no dip in her temp. However, it seems the spotting has turned into more of a constant flow and into what we now believe is the start of her period.

The both of us have had such stressful weeks at work, we were really looking forward to taking our first pregnancy test Saturday morning. Instead we'll hit the gym and the farmers market in the morning then spend the rest of the day relaxing on the deck in the sunshine. It's not the BFP we were hoping for, but it's not a bad way to spend a Saturday either.

So I'm a little disappointed.
And this week just got a bit more sucky.
BUT
We're heading up to Maine next Friday for the week and we'll be able to relax and recoup before our next insemination.
Lets hope some good ol' R&R will help those swimmers stick! :)

Bleh.

6 DPO

Ok.

How do people get through the tww? How do people do it more than once? Here we are, 6 days in, and I think I am losing my mind. I told myself I wasn't go to analyze every tiny little thing my body does. I totally lied.

My only saving grace is that AF generally comes anywhere between 10-12 DPO, so hopefully I won't have much longer to wait. If it doesn't appear by Saturday we will test.

Possible signs, slight lower abdominal cramping, achy back and today a bout of gross vomit feeling and feeling lightheaded. But I am can attribute that all to other things. Obviously.

J has been super great making sure I rest and eat well. And drink plenty of water because I am very bad at that. Oh and putting up with my neurotic nature.

I'll update as I see fit. Hopefully with a BFP!!!

Wishing baby dust for all the others out there currently waiting.

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Stick it in!

It would only make sense that our first IUI happened on Marathon Monday and during an afternoon Red Sox home game. Our clinic is right across from Fenway Park so needless to say things were quite busy. Parking by the clinic is difficult on a normal day, but throw these two events into the mix and it becomes downright impossible. The last resort garage we would normally pay to park in was charging $50 today. Fifty dollars! For that price, I hope the spot comes with a little slap and tickle! We ending up finding the one lot that was only charging $30, and just took it on the chin.

Did I mention I'm a huge Yankee's fan? So knowing the entire Red Sox nation would be out in full force right outside the clinic, S wore one of my Yankee's sweatshirts during insemination.

We made our way into the office and S assumed the position on the crinkly paper, feet in stirrups and me beside her side. Once everything was in it's proper place, I was asked if I'd like to pull the plunger. Sure why not. As the nurse held the syringe in place I put my finger on the trigger and had at it. Too fast the nurse said. Then too slow. Stop. Slowly.... slowly.... keep going... and stop. The whole thing must have lasted only 30 seconds, but it felt like I was down there forever. I was so afraid to do something wrong, I had visions of pushing the little guys threw with so much force they'd come shooting out of S's eyeballs! But alas the syringe was emptied and we were on our way.

We stopped for some good luck lunch on the way home then got S all situated on the couch for an afternoon of relaxation. I cut her up some pineapple and threw in Baby's Momma. Now she's soundly sleeping beside me... I'm guessing it's safe to turn the movie off now and put on Spartacus.

Oh yeah.... the Red Sox lost today's game. Hopefully thats good mojo that a new Yankee's fan will have been conceived today! :)

And Now We Wait...

Thank you for the comments! We are now home safe and sound. After battling traffic (two huge events in the city) and paying $30 for parking, I am inseminated, fed and resting on the couch. Everything went well, I felt a little discomfort, mostly from the speculum, but the IUI itself went smoothly. J. even got to push the plunger.

We are officially in our first TWW and I wonder how I'll keep my sanity. I just ate some pineapple and have lots of other 'implantation friendly' snacks around the house.

I'm going to do my best to not obsess the next two weeks, but no promises...Time for me to catch up on everybody elses blogs!

Just Got the Call

Appointment at 10:15.

Wish us luck!

The First Day of the Rest of Our Lives

15 minutes ago I called and left a message to schedule our very first IUI today. The nurse on call should call me back by 9 am to confirm a time to come in. At that point our first insemination will commence!

Things didn't go exactly as planned this month. We didn't get to do our home insemination since I got my first OPK yesterday and the clinic was closed for sperm pickup. But I think we are hitting the nail on the head for our IUI timing. My cervix feels nice and open. I am lacking on the CM but since the little guys are being directly deposited into my uterus I think we'll be ok. Also my temp was low today, which is my pattern. Tomorrow I should get a spike and hopefully it will stay that way!

I know our our chances of this working are some ridiculous low percent, but I feel good about where we are. And I know that no matter what happens I need to accept it and move on if need be. There are many other months out there.

But let's just make it be this one, ok?

Annoyance

What a week!

After traveling for work and coming home to a very flooded basement, I am currently stressing that my doctor has not sent me my final test results, I am due to ovulate in 2 weeks and I still don't have medical clearance to order the sperms.

So, yeah.

Oh and J. is out of work indefinitely until her office cleans up from the floods.

But hopefully that means she can run to the doctor's office on Monday and pick up my results, she can easily have the time off to go to our first IUI. And we can spend our entire weeklong vacation together.

So, looking at the bright side.